I hate my life~

I really feel get off of this world and this life..
because what ever i do just make people angry me and hate me...
i know i already hurt many of them...
What happened to me?!!!
fuck!!
just break for few days...
i feel realive...
because i am not doing something wrong to my family..
i have not to think so much and feel sorry to my parents...
at this country everyone hate me...
i think i;ll going to study very very hard to go oversea for study AND reach a place that no one knows me,...
and i can start my new life...
i rather put down everything here...
and just go away...
already many time i hurt someone..
and i think i wont wanna be in relationship...
because i just hurt them...
 and i dont wanna to get marry if can... i just wanna be in single... i earn money for myself not need to care about another part to earn money for me...
for me... long relationship i have no confidence...so i rather keep away from guys!!! so im always single...
i wont be lesbian la..
but i just wanna to have friends and family...
i wont wanna build a relationship or my own family...
i just wanna die off alone when i am OLD!!!

Saturday, 27.3.2010

Today is the day we ended.
Finally, we break.
I know that he hates me...
but for me and him this is a best way to let both go and be happy
after this time i finally learned a thing
that is i hope never love anyone anymore...
because love for me is happy but sad and quarrel and everything negative is more than happy...
maybe this is my life..
but i learn to avoid from falling in love with anyone...
because im a gal who only hurt guys..
so i hope no guy will like me and only become very good friends.
everything in my mind is just to tell myself i already let him go and i would not regret for what i have say out to him and that i hurt him.
because for me love is a sad things.
because of my family i feel pressure...
i think nothing is more important than my family
i'll break again and again untill this time all is because effect by what my family adults had say to me.
i think more important for me now is to study study and study...
i got any freedom to do anything... i must study hard and never let anyone look down at me..
i hope

GOD BLESS ME... WISH MY LAW AND MARKETING CAN PASS ... AT LEAST A CREDIT FOR BOTH SUBJECT.

SO I 'LL DO ALL MY BEST TO GET AT LEAST A CREDIT

FRIDAY,12 MARCH 2010,

FRIDAY,12 MARCH 2010
Early morning I felt something...
I feel not happy...
I feel the feeling in my heart maybe have gone...
I cannot cheer up... I don't know wanna how then I can be happy again....
It hard for me to have a choice... because I heard someone heard something bad...
Don't know wanna say what again... F**k...

ABOUT last night... Monday 8March2010~

Last night i went to coach house with some friend...
A very surprise thing is that coach introduce Melilea to us and told us that it is a opportunity to earn some pocket money or maybe become a million A in an early age...
Those product really very useful to our daily life...
every product doesn't contain any preventative... Its healthy for our health or our skin...
AND all those price of each product also very comfortable...
AFTER that we all went to eat something at 3rd mile McDonald...
we had a lot of fun there taking photo...
everyone act very weirdly and very funny..
I'll try to upload into FACEBOOK as soon as possible...
so everyone can see it...

TODAY, MONDAY, 8TH MARCH 2010, RAINING DAY~

This morning i woke up very early.
I fetch my sisters to school then when i reach home, i prepared lunch and dinner in the same time by using a very useful material... i think it is called SELINA...
its not the SHE taiwan group singer selina o... it something for cooking...it is electrical...it can cook more than 3 things in a time and only using less than 30 minutes...(anyone that had look into my blog... if wanna to know more about the selina please tell me... email- fennie1344@hotmail.com)
WOW~ i had cook a very delicious soup and it contains all the healthy food...
like... potato, vege, onion, corn and more... (hope my sisters and brother like it:)
about 10 o'clock... i went out with my friend and wanna to go pay bill at MBKS...
BUT~~ the guy working there said its already expired... so i had to go many places and play all those bills...sweat!!
i hate it!!!
from this~ i learn a thing... that is no matter what thing must try to pay or finish at the time before its too late...
pay bills also the same...
when it have a system to pay in a easy way we should appreciate it... because if not... we will getting trouble that a very inconvenient to pay all those bill...
after going MBKS... i went for breakfast or maybe can say that lunch too...
i take a bowl of LAKSA... its very delicious and i like it...
i waiting for time to fetch my sisters and brother back from school...
maybe will sleep awhile for this afternoon...because tonight i'm going to coach house at 7 pm. hope coach didn't say me become fatter but become prettier.... wakakaka...
hope i have listen to the right one that i wanna to listen...
its time to go out... if got time i'll write about what is fun or interesting about tonight at coach house...

TODAY, FRIDAY. 6TH MARCH 2010

Today i wake up very early compare to usual...
I fetch my sisters to school and I do some housework while reach home...
About 8.30 I fetch my brother to school...
After that, while I reach home I prepare for lunch and dinner for my family...
because my lovely mom not here with us...
THEN, I went to collect mINE  and sister identity card this morning with my friend LYNN...
After that, we went to cyber at chonglin plaza which was GREEN ROAD..
We had some fun playing games and checking on FB...
NO longer i receive my dad's call...
He say that tonight having a dinner... WANTED me and my sisters brother go together...
I feel the food that i cook is wasted already...T.T
haha...
The dinner are very boring...
BECAUSE most of the people are almost very old and very young... haha... no 1 to talk with...
The dishes~~~ not really nice~~~ i feel vomit it out~~ haha,...
LUCKILY DIDN'T VOMIT OUT!!! HAHA
VERY TIRED!!!

DIFFICULTY~~

WOW~ its really difficult to have a creative and amazing blog...
I should learn more from my cousin...IVY... HER blog really interesting...
It make me have a feeling to create one blog too...
BUT nevermind... i have a simple one already enough...
I just wanna have a space for me to write what I like and WHAT I want to...
THEN~~ I try to write a bit here...


ABOUT LOVE...
My parents dont let me have a boy friend first...
I know they are good to me...
but i have the feeling of love..
i cannot control the feeling to love a guy...
AT here i wish to apologize for what i have done~~
I LOVE MY FAMILY MORE THAN EVERYTHING...

I MISS MY MOM~~

I MISS MY MOM SO MUCH~~
She went to Bintulu this evening....
Her flight was on 6 something...
she come back for longtime last month...because have to prepare for the CHINESE NEW YEAR~~
And she today went there for sales again....
HOPE SHE CAN FASTER EARN MONEY THIS MONTH AND COME BACK MEET US AGAIN~ WISH GOD BLESS HER~~~AND hope she remember to take medicine everyday~~
because she have high blood pressure....