I hate my life~

I really feel get off of this world and this life..
because what ever i do just make people angry me and hate me...
i know i already hurt many of them...
What happened to me?!!!
fuck!!
just break for few days...
i feel realive...
because i am not doing something wrong to my family..
i have not to think so much and feel sorry to my parents...
at this country everyone hate me...
i think i;ll going to study very very hard to go oversea for study AND reach a place that no one knows me,...
and i can start my new life...
i rather put down everything here...
and just go away...
already many time i hurt someone..
and i think i wont wanna be in relationship...
because i just hurt them...
 and i dont wanna to get marry if can... i just wanna be in single... i earn money for myself not need to care about another part to earn money for me...
for me... long relationship i have no confidence...so i rather keep away from guys!!! so im always single...
i wont be lesbian la..
but i just wanna to have friends and family...
i wont wanna build a relationship or my own family...
i just wanna die off alone when i am OLD!!!